Dear Ms. Feverfew,
If you should stumble upon this blog, please understand these very important things:
First, I love you. I always have. I always will. You are “bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, fruit of my age long mother-pain.” My love for you is not predicated on any behavior of yours – I love you simply because you are.
I always have. I always will. It’s just how I roll.
Regardless of whether you ever decide to contact me or not, this love will flow like a river and never cease running its true course. These letters are a natural extension of this love and like any river, some will gently sweep you along and others will be swift, tumultuous and filled with danger. As you read them, always remember this: I love you. I always have. I always will.
Second, I do not know much about your parents other than what I have heard from others and the few phone calls I have had from your mother. Any angst, anxiety, fury, and other not-so pleasant emotions about adoption expressed in these letters is NOT directed at your parents. I truly believe they are good people who did the best they knew how to do at the time – that is to love you and your siblings. I am grateful to them for loving you and providing you with a solid foundation on which to build your life.
Much love and belief –